I'm taking back the upper hand.
Enough of this.
If Sean cannot give me what I need, I'm done. Finished. And it will be the worst mistake he ever makes. But I deserve happiness.
I have been trying and I have been doing a great job. But I have as much control in this relationship as he does, and I have not been taking control. I have the upper hand too. I have a say. I do not need to defer to him on all issues. And Jesus, I have been! WTF. When do I EVER defer. And that's not to say that I shouldn't compromise, because of course that's what it's all about. But I am a firm, independent, strong woman, extremely capable of distance, space, and asking for what I want. And I'm going to damn reclaim that.
Enough fixing me. I'm GOOD. I'm GREAT. I can still work on things yes, but not the detriment of my... well... me.
