That means, work work work. Friends friends friends.
I'm giving us a month to get back on track. That means a month to start feeling like Sean actually brings something to my life, instead of depressing me and turning my emotions inside out. And if I am going to start seeing other people, so be it. But this.... can't sustain. And if he's not IT, then he's not.
That makes me so unbelievably sad to write, but, at this point, like my therapist said, I have to focus on the fact that we ARE still dating. We're not breaking up. He doesn't want to break up. He just wants some space and time for things to go back to normal. And HE has to fix that. Not me. So if he doesn't come around in a little bit, then it's not for my lack of trying.
But I deserve better than this. And I deserve to be happier than this, right now. So, things have to change on his end... and hopefully with some space and time to process, they will.
But we're still dating and he still loves me. So right now, I just have to focus on myself for a while.
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