Got The Wanderin' Blues

January leaves me bluesy and in the dumps. This weekend was rough. A lot of tears and gnashing of the teeth. The cold, the wet, the rain, the darkness... it all leaves me feeling so fragile and sandpapered. It leaves me with a profound sense of restlessness, of unhappiness with the direction my life has taken, and no amount of pampering or careful self-love ever really leaves me fulfilled. I find myself hating my job and feeling underappreciated, and I feel lonely, misunderstood, and dull. It's depressing, and it's miserable.